Hello Folks,
This isn't going to be a very long blog, but I can't help but feel that I need to share how blessed Ben and I have been this week. We have been struggling to find a way to pay our bills and rent because they were all coming at the end of the month and at the same time, and we only really had one pay check to get through the first of the month after moving, and then another right when everything was due. It was stressful, but we have truly been blessed. We have also been trying to get Medicaid coverage with the state of Idaho for my pregnancy and for our son. It's been a worry in the back of my mind as my residual coverage from California came to a close right at the end of the year. I'm not superstitious, but I don't feel very comfortable going uncovered especially when it isn't my life alone that would pay if something happened and we had a medical emergency.
For those who are reading this who are unfamiliar with the LDS church: we are asked to pay 10% of our gross income back to the Lord and it goes to help build the church, helping with building church buildings, school buildings, funding local aid to those who need it, and helping those who are less fortunate. We believe that God gives us everything and only asks 10% of what we make to give back to Him to help Him with helping His children. I know that some may not understand or really want to do that, but we believe that we are blessed even more for being willing to give back that 10% and that many times we are blessed financially and temporally with what we need when we do so. I have always been very happy to pay tithing and it has never been an issue for me. There have been times since getting married though when it was literally, we have this bill and this is the tithing we need/want to pay and they are so similar it has to be one or the other at this time. There are moments when it isn't easy and when it is very stressful. However, every time we have put God first, we have had miracles that I can't even explain come to us, whether it was Financial Aid being processed and distributed in a week rather than the normal month or two, or whether we made just enough to pay rent, utilities, and groceries. The Lord has always taken care of us, and He has always helped us to find a way to accomplish our goals when we put Him first. Really, I think that is the principle of tithing though, when we put God first, even over our own desires and needs, He give us what we need and more for being willing to sacrifice to help others in need and to help Him. I'm very grateful for what I learn everytime I pay my tithing,and I am grateful for the testimony I have had from such experiences.
This month we faced our tithing dilemma again, and we decided we couldn't afford not to pay our tithing. Today, we paid our rent, our utilities and got groceries with money to spare. We were able to renew our car insurance on the 2nd of January without any delay in coverage, and we were also able to get Pregnancy coverage for Finch and I in one day rather than wait weeks for the possibility of being considered eligible. We have a doctor who didn't charge us for our visit but put it under "pending coverage" so we could see our physician right away. The list of blessings and fortunes in our favor go on and on. Ben has been sick, but I have been healthy albeit tired instead of getting sick since I could have real problems if I got sick being pregnant. My family is blessed with so much, and we have been helped in ways I can't explain except to say, we have someone watching out for us and taking care of us.
Tender mercies have been extended to us over and over and I just didn't feel right not sharing how blessed we have been because we have truly been given miracles. I hope that this brings hope to someone who reads this and is struggling to know that everything will be alright, and that you are loved, and cared about, and that God understands and knows your needs. I realize that not everyone who reads this blog may be religious or believe in God, and I do not judge in any way your beliefs, but I hope you know you have as support system of those who care about you and care for you and that that gives you hope and reason in times of trouble. I believe that God is always on our side, and that He is always watching out for me and my little family. We may not have much, but we have great great love from Him and I can sleep at night knowing that I am never alone with Him. Whether you believe in God, Karma, the universe being kind when you are kind, or however you decide to phrase it, I hope you know that good things are always out there for you and good people are always there to help you. We have had many angels in our lives, those I never would have thought of who reach out to me and Ben all the time, times when I needed a hug or a note of encouragement, and to those who are those angels, thank you for your help, for you kindness, and for you're listening to the promptings given to you to reach out. They make a difference everyday to us, and we never forget.
My only wish is that I can be that person to someone in need, and to be able to pass along the Christlike love of service to someone who is searching for help, love, encouragement, or a tender mercy. To feel this way, and to feel such security in the blessings of God is such a peaceful feeling, and one that I could definitely get used to and hope to share when I can.
So there's my little spiritual thought, thanks for reading :)
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